The truth

Yugi · Post by **Yugi** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 10:50 pm

ok..heres the truth..im really a boy..17 and american..im not saying every other guys is /girl is all sick minded..its just the ones who are make me made..i know there are good poeple out there i just get so angry..and the only reason why i act like a girl on the net is because i hate myself for being a boy ;.; i wish i was never born as one..i would of prefered to be a girl..kinda like in .hack that girl was a boy character in that game thing and im doing just that..im sorry everyone..i just want to be a girl in game to get away from reality of being a boy..you all hate me i just want to apologize..im sorry..i wish i was a japanese girl..but im not..thats why i pretend..see you in game..if you still like me that is..which i highly doubt you do..T-T

Yugi · Post by **Yugi** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 11:01 pm

Lord forgive me for i have sinned..

Aony · Post by **Aony** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 11:31 pm

it's not that bad to wish you were another person, or in your case another gender, and to pretend to be that in a game is nothing to be ashamed of. In fact, it's basically the point of it. Because what is a game other than a break from reality that you become someone other than yourself?

Yugi · Post by **Yugi** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 11:33 pm

....tell that to the poeple who are treating me like crap..;.;

Aony · Post by **Aony** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 11:34 pm

If they bother to read this, then I just did.

Yugi · Post by **Yugi** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 11:37 pm

It was ok for that girl in .hack to be a male character and it was fine for them..but for me..they just treat me like im not human.. they think im a monstrosity..

Kailea · Post by **Kailea** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 11:44 pm

the thing is they are not mad or angry that you are a guy playing a girl, but you make to much stuff up to get at4ention, that is what they are mad about, I am a guy and in FFXI I am a Mithra and yes I act very girllish....ask Prrsha lol, but anyway, I dont make up stuff though and I get treated fine.

kashell · Post by **kashell** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 11:46 pm

All your trying to do is get attention, but I hope you realize there's the difference between good attention and bad attention...guess which you're getting.

Yugi · Post by **Yugi** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 11:46 pm

well sorrrrrrrrrrrryyy!

Yugi · Post by **Yugi** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 11:48 pm

what the hell do you want me to do?

Yugi · Post by **Yugi** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 11:50 pm

how am i supposed to know if im trying to get attention or nmot geeze..your all so mean..what did i ever do to you? whats being mean to me gonna get you?

kashell · Post by **kashell** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 11:54 pm

Yugi wrote:how am i supposed to know if im trying to get attention or nmot geeze..your all so mean..what did i ever do to you? whats being mean to me gonna get you?

Heh, first of all I'm not being mean i'm simply pointing out a fact. How do you not know your trying to get attention....? Your spamming the boards with pointless topics and messages.

Yugi · Post by **Yugi** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 11:58 pm

oh..sorry..>< well i just feel really bad about everything so i just thought some people would be happy to know i'm gonna commit suicide..sorry..

Batsu · Post by **Batsu** » Fri Aug 12, 2005 11:59 pm

To be honest with you Yugi, I had the same, "issue" I guess we could call it; you know the whole gender dilemma thing you have going on. I just didn't choose to project myself in the way you are, I kept it to myself instead, which was probably worse, but in the end I ended up realizing . . . why be a girl, when I have a girl friend? Its a lot better than being a girl if you ask me. If you don't have a girl friend at the time then try to get one, put yourself out there! I'm sure there’s someone who would be interested in you, some girls are attracted to guys without much confidence. Not trying to insult you, but that’s what you're portraying yourself to me as.

If you'd like to discuss this further feel free to, I'll check in on the topic again later on.

I wouldn't mind helping you; you just need to be willing to ask for it and to stop whining and causing all of this drama. That’s all I ask.

Also sorry if this post is some what sloppy, or sounds a little ignorant, I seem to be losing my touch as of late, and if its not, shame on my terrible habit of being an obsessive compulsive perfectionist.

Yugi · Post by **Yugi** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:03 am

Batsu wrote:To be honest with you Yugi, I had the same, "issue" I guess we could call it; you know the whole gender dilemma thing you have going on. I just didn't choose to project myself in the way you are, I kept it to myself instead, which was probably worse, but in the end I ended up realizing . . . why be a girl, when I have a girl friend? Its a lot better than being a girl if you ask me. If you don't have a girl friend at the time then try to get one, put yourself out there! I'm sure there’s someone who would be interested in you, some girls are attracted to guys without much confidence. Not trying to insult you, but that’s what you're portraying yourself to me as.

If you'd like to discuss this further feel free to, I'll check in on the topic again later on.

I wouldn't mind helping you; you just need to be willing to ask for it and to stop whining and causing all of this drama. That’s all I ask.

Also sorry if this post is some what sloppy, or sounds a little ignorant, I seem to be losing my touch as of late, and if its not, shame on my terrible habit of being an obsessive compulsive perfectionist.

yeah your right..but i cant help it..people hate me so i thought if i killed myself the world would be a better place..i dont mean to make a big scene of things but i cant tell if what im saying is drama or not..<.> i just want freinds..but all i get are enemies ><

Aony · Post by **Aony** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:06 am

Trust me. Suicide isnt going to make the world a better place as you say it will. All it will accomplish is making them feel like sh*t and make them live their entire life knowing they drove someone to suicide. Sometimes the pain is so horrible that it drives them to the same fate. Noone wants to feel like they took another's life, and noone deserves it.

Yugi · Post by **Yugi** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:08 am

you know some people would be happy to know that..like the terrorists on 9/11..sorry to bring that up ><

Aony · Post by **Aony** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:12 am

And you said all you want if friends, but all you get is enemies...there is a reason for that. When you say something horrible has happened to you and cry about it to people, what you get isn't friends, they're more like a your normal (useless may I add) guidance councelor. They say they'll be there for you and try to make you feel better and they'll never leave your side. But it's not true, because they'll do the exact same thing the next time someone else comes in with another sob story.
As the saying goes "to get a friend, be one." If you want people to like you, like them first. Make it more about them than about you. Just as you have things you want to tell people, to get something off your chest, so do they. And if you want to be their friend, they expect you to listen to them as they have to you. Nobody here hates you, everyone is trying to get you to see your error and make a better path to your future.

Aony · Post by **Aony** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:13 am

Yugi wrote:you know some people would be happy to know that..like the terrorists on 9/11..sorry to bring that up ><

Well that's different, terrorists aren't human

Yugi · Post by **Yugi** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:16 am

im gonna try hard not oto be a crybaby..

Aony · Post by **Aony** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:18 am

Aony wrote:
Yugi wrote:you know some people would be happy to know that..like the terrorists on 9/11..sorry to bring that up ><
Well that's different, terrorists aren't human

ok, to put that in a more serious tone, when they do that, they dont see a building full of people with their own lives, their own problems, their own personalities. They see instead what their leader wants them to see: a building full of of animals. They see in that building creatures that have no minds, that are oblivious to what is true and right, and are willing to die to exterminate these pests, because that's what they've been taught they are. They do not feel guilt because they dont believe they killed another human being.

Yugi · Post by **Yugi** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:22 am

i dont like them..thats not right..i dont think i want to kill myself now..im too scared to know what it'll feel like.. how could anyone kill somebody and be happy about it? i guess thneir ''god''is realated to satan.

Aony · Post by **Aony** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:23 am

Yugi wrote:im gonna try hard not oto be a crybaby..

Truthfully, I'm a bit of one too. Hell, I shed a few tears writing on here to be completely honest. But just like (sorry to anyone who's offended this is the first thing that came to mind) people in the same church, people taught the same way will act differently, like one will be those over-activists you always hear about, and others are more passively believing, I cry for others, and up until now you have cried for yourself. Hopefully after today that will change a little bit

We're here to be your friends and help you open your eyes for you. That's what a linkshell's about.

Yugi · Post by **Yugi** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:25 am

i hope so..cause im antisocial and i need to know how to make freinds

Aony · Post by **Aony** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:26 am

Yugi wrote:i guess their ''god''is realated to satan.

You could say that. In whatever bible they read, they're taught that anyone that doesnt believe their beliefs have to be taken out, even by cost of their own lives, and by doing so they'll be granted passage to heaven. Why anyone would believe that, I dont know. They're just gullible.

Yugi wrote:i dont think i want to kill myself now..im too scared to know what it'll feel like..

That's good, it means you're thinking a little more

glad to be of service.

Yugi · Post by **Yugi** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:30 am

Aony · Post by **Aony** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:32 am

Yugi wrote:i hope so..cause im antisocial and i need to know how to make freinds

That's me too kind of....back in kindergarden, I didn't have any friends at all. So they got another kid in my situation (just he had asthma) and got us to be friends (that only works when you're very little of course). Two years later, he moved out of state and I was all alone again. This lasted until the end of 5th grade (yes, i had no friends for three years) when I moved in with my dad and went to a new school. I made friends with Ashley, a tomboy that lives across the street, and Chris, a slightly hyper dude that was already slight friends with ashley at the time that shared my love of anime. This year, I made friends with Hetty, a chinese girl that everyone thinks is homicidal because of the dark and scary poems she writes. So to date I have three friends, but they're the best I could ever ask for. Someday you'll run into someone too, possibly totally opposite from you, or maybe in the exact same boat as you. And it'll happen when you least expect it.

Aony · Post by **Aony** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:33 am

Yugi wrote:

great to see a smile from ya now

I seem to have a way of doing that...but only online it seems. In real life I'm a stuttering clutz with ADD that cant do anything right

Yugi · Post by **Yugi** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:35 am

Post by **Tivia** » Sat Aug 13, 2005 12:49 am

Yugi wrote:yeah your right..but i cant help it..people hate me so i thought if i killed myself the world would be a better place..i dont mean to make a big scene of things but i cant tell if what im saying is drama or not..<.> i just want freinds..but all i get are enemies ><

You know something Yugi I do not know if you have read or understood some of my other post's but I have given you clues. Since those have been missed Im going to put it bluntly,

No One Hates you...We however hate the Drama, the constant threats of suicide and other like behavior. You wanted to know what the desperate bids of attention are? Go back and read your post's if you mentioned suicide in it, Hate, rape, american females being whores etc then those post's were exactly what we were referring to.

Now concerning your thought of people hating you..Let me enlighten you to something. I was picked on from kindergarten up, I was never popular, I was always the butt of jokes etc, I can count on 1 hand the number of friends I had the entire time I was in school and have fingers to spare. Honestly it was so bad for me even the unpopular kids picked on me, my school experience was throughly miserable and I do not miss a moment of it. Now with that said I came to a simple relevation one day, I quit caring what other people thought of me. You know what I felt alot better when i realized I honestly did not give a crap what other people thought. Who cares, most of them are shallow insenitive idiots who have the IQ of a rain puddle, I scored the highest SAT in my state who were they to judge me? I get supreme satisfaction now in that most of them, now bag my groceries, Serve my food, mow my lawn, paint my house and wash my car. In a nutshell what other people think of you is wholely and completely irrelevant, most of them will amount to nothing in the real world.

So honestly at this point you are 17..The ball is in your court, you will decide from this point one of two things. #1 that peoples shallow uneducated opinions based in nothing more then a highschool popularity contest which will earn them a job asking if you want Fries with your burger matter to you. or #2 that honestly they are in fact idiots and are not worth your time effort or energy, and that your opinion is the only one that matters and that opinion is based off Real accomplishments and things that matter for real.